New year. New decade. This last week has brought so many posts, tweets and grams out there speaking of getting in shape, eating better, being more mindful, etc etc etc… Resolution is a word that has been thrown around quite a bit, but those same resolutions are hard to keep and often very lofty. To me, resolutions are often times quite unattainable. They are statements that are meant to vastly change our lives to the point of an unrealistic and unpractical intention. I know myself that I have (been there, done that) with setting soaring resolutions that only resulted in defeat and had me feeling like crap by February for not being able to hold on and push through.
But again, being that it’s a new year, I want to start fresh with a clean slate. After many years, I finally feel like I am in an amazing place where I am ready to take on new things. I am ready for new challenges and tasks to make a commitment to. Those of you who really know me are aware that it’s been one hell of a journey to get to this place I am in, the place where I can finally say yes — I am ready to soar.
With all of this being said, this year I decided to sum up 2020 in one word. And that word is STRENGTH. Strength can take on many meanings and nuances, and that is exactly what I was going for when I chose it.
Let me break it down for you.
Mentally ~ I am stronger in my mind than ever. Years of therapy, work on myself, believing in and trusting others again, and surrounding myself with good people have all led me to where I am now. It has not been an easy road by any means, but in my mind, I feel at peace with myself and who I am. Are there days when I am not so kind to myself? Yep. Are there moments when I just want to crawl into bed and close off everyone and everything around me? Absolutely. But all in all, I am a far cry from where I used to be and it feels so damn good. So in 2020, I want to continue to work on my general mindset and know that I can do anything I put my mind to.
Physically ~ Like many others, I want to finally get in shape again. I do hold my own in terms of overall health, but my body has been holding on almost entirely through a good diet. What I have let go is the exercise piece and that will be coming back this year. I will be working with someone starting on Monday to get my fitness journey going and I can’t wait to see where it takes me.
Emotionally ~ I am an over thinker. Overthinking goes hand in hand with anxiety. I lay awake at night badgering myself for things I did and said during the day. I play out every possible scenario in my head of what could go wrong in the future. It is depleting and it needs to stop. This trait has been a topic of many therapy sessions and I have exhausted the subject to the point of me even being sick of talking about it. Quite honestly, at the end of the day, everything I was worried about never even happened. So this year, I have decided to make a conscious effort to not worry so much. I have been told many, many times – if I just be myself, the rest will fall into place. I may not be everyone’s cup of tea, but who is? So all in all, I want to be kinder and gentler to myself and allow myself to live peacefully and in the present because I am freaking lucky to be surrounded by the ones who love me.
To wrap up, I would love to know what your word for 2020 will be. Happy New Year! xo